Saturday, October 17, 2015

Should I keep going?

Writing I mean...or rather, writing on this blog.

I still get some views when I write, and I think about writing all the time, I'm just not sure if what I have to say is worth anyone's time reading. Sometimes I wonder if blogs are on their way out, or if its just blogger, or if its something else.

Its also hard to write on such a personal nature, but if it helps some other people out there, then that makes it worth it, but does it?

Many of the other people who I used to read have quit, or moved on to different things. Much of the time, for me, its just that "putting yourself out there" kind of thing. Especially as I still search for meaning, and purpose. People tend to judge you, or hold you to something you've said before, so sometime it feels like if you pick a path, and then later want to do something different, or realize that its the wrong path for you, that you can't go back. We're such critical creatures, especially in the U.S. Its not all "our" fault though, there is a lot of brainwashing that goes on in our culture to try and keep us that way. Remember when everyone was worried about the "commies"? We have a different boogeyman now days, but religion always plays a part.

Most people are constantly told what to see, think, feel, and it starts at birth. "...they Baden Powell all the boys, and Betty Crocker all the girls..." to quote a movie. Anything that doesn't fall into line with what you've been taught as "normal" gets labeled as some type of "deviant" behavior.

I guess that's my rant for the day. I'm feeling down, but sending out positive energy to all my readers!


Friday, September 25, 2015


Are we all lost like stars in the sky
Orbiting an unknown point in space
Destined to run around in circles
Until we finally choose a direction
Take control
And use those stars to plot our course

Are we rudderless ships in a vast sea of the unknown
Floating, drifting, aimless we crash
Beached wherever the wind happens to blow
Does our unknown destination harbor friend or foe

If we don't seek then we'll never find
The answers to our questions that we haven't even thought to ask
Is choosing the wrong direction better than having not chosen at all
For even then, knowledge is gained.
Wandering with a purpose, is not merely drifting

pick a direction
look for answers
seek to know
dare to be different
CHOOSE to be lost
FIND yourself.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013


I've been thinking a lot about the people that we meet. Running a hotel, I have a chance to meet a lot of people. The majority of them seem to constantly strive to affirm my belief that most people are generally stupid and lazy. Things like calling the front desk to ask if we have internet, when you could just turn on your device and check. Or calling down to ask what time breakfast is, when I tell everyone at check-in, AND not only is there a sign beside the door, there's a booklet in each room sharing information like that.

Then there are those few people. People that actually think about things, and have something intelligent to say. People who are witty, funny, and quick with a smile. People struggling through hard times. People standing outside the box.

Monday, May 20, 2013

Long time gone...

Howdy all!

Still working at the hotel. It has been over two years now without a day off. I'm beat, I don't know the last time I was able to sleep a full night. Its hard to write, or be spiritual, or get in touch with nature. I had a job interview...maybe that will pan out, and I can write freely again.

Its raining outside right now. I love the smell, and the sounds of rain. Things are starting to turn green, there's new life again in the world. It gets my thoughts turning, and churning. I'm still not sure where this long strange journey leads, I can barely see to the next bend in the road. But down it we'll walk. Leaning more away from "wiccan" type structure currently. Wandering down a more "shamanistic" path. We'll see where that leads, but I feel the pull. Sadly every time I try and meditate the phone rings, or someone bothers me in some other way, so sometimes it feels like one step forward and two steps back.

That's all for now.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

January's Full Moon

Wondering what to do with the upcoming full moon?

The upcoming full moon on January 9th is sometimes called the Cold Moon, or the Wolf Moon. This is the time of year when the great sleep has kicked in, and we're all feeling a bit sluggish. Just as the cold outside causes the plants and animals in the area to slow down growth, and hibernate, we naturally want to do the same thing. It helps us preserve the warmth we have, and conserve the food that instinctually we know is scarcer this time of year. Just because we're in a global society now more then ever doesn't change that our genetic coding tells us this is the time to slow down, and plan for the thaw.

This is part of the reason we stop and take stock of the past year, and make resolutions for the future. As your thoughts turn inward, this is a good time to develop your inner self, your spirituality, and work on being closer to deities in your life. Maybe you've realized you need to make a change, this is a good time to get started.

This is a good time to work on magic related to protection. Both physical and spiritual protection. Let the powers that be know you're in touch with yourself, and them this season, as you howl at the Wolf Moon. Just don't forget to dress warm!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Just stopped in...

Just a break from working and writing on my Nano. I've managed to hit 5,000 words, which I think is better then last year!  Hurrah!

I haven't had any comments yet (as I write this) on my last post. So I was wondering if it was to dark, or if people who wanted some sort of vengeance were afraid to speak up, some other thing, or all of the above? So I went digging through my stats, and most of the visitors to my blog since I wrote that post, didn't even see that post.  They're reading stuff I wrote months ago!  lol

Well, I guess I'm glad to just have visitors, and maybe they'll stick around for longer, and read more.

Better get back to the novel, I'm still around 9,000 behind for finishing on time!


Monday, October 31, 2011

Happy Halloween!

It's Halloween, or All Hallows Eve, and while I live in an area where I can't really find a group minded individuals to visit with (in town anyway, I could drive about 80 miles and find a few) on this day, I can write a post.

Enjoy this day of celebration, power, and closeness.

At the end of the Wiccan Rede it says..."These Eight words the Rede fulfill: "An Ye Harm None, Do What Ye Will""