Sunday, December 20, 2009

Solstice, the return of the sun!

For those of us in the northern hemisphere tomorrow, Dec. 21st, marks the Winter Solstice.  This is the day of the longest period of night, but that's not what we celebrate.  We're celebrating the return of the sun!  After the solstice that days start getting longer again, and though it might not seem like it at times, we're heading back towards warmer weather.

Monday, November 23, 2009

If there's a God...

I've been trying to have conversation with people I don't know, as sort of practice to be able to talk to the people I do know about my religious/spiritual decisions.  As you can imagine, some conversations go better than others.  I have noticed something that I find quite odd though.  Many people believe in God in some form or another, but for some reason get really upset or offended at the idea there may be more then one God.  Or even that the God I believe in is different from yours.  Why is it that we're able to accept our own belief in something we can't see, or touch, but someone else's beliefs...well those are just wrong.  They're a heretic, or insane, sometimes we use our beliefs to "condemn" them.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Dad update...

So my dad had his gallbladder out.  He has been passing a lot of stones, which is bad.  Apparently with diabetes your pain nerves don't work the same, and so he hasn't had the all consuming pain that comes with knowing something is wrong.  The surgeon said he should have had his gallbladder removed about 2 years ago.  The stones passing caused some scarring which made it so his liver couldn't function right.

During the surgery they found that he had passed another stone, so he had to have a second surgery the next day to have that stone removed.  They also did a biopsy of his liver and pancreas, so they could rule out cancers, or further damage.  We won't have the results of that for a few more days, for now he's home, and getting better.

Hopefully that was the worst of it, and now all my dad will have to worry about is how to pay for it all.  :S

Monday, November 2, 2009

"Life sucks and then you die....and then it sucks some more."  Georgia Lass--Dead Like Me.

I can really relate to this lately.  My sister and friend came up to visit, and that was fun for a few days.  I got a call from a place to go take a typing test and a placement test.  They want 45wpm, and I did 60, so I'm hopeful.  Then there was the call about my dad.  He's turned yellow. 

I talked him into going to the ER, and they did some tests, and pretty much could only rule out most forms of hepatitis and a blockage from stones.  He does have gallstones, but the ct scan didn't show a blockage.  They took 5 vials of blood for testing...  After 3 days he was finally able to get in to see his doctor.  They ordered more blood tests, and an MRI, and took a week getting him an appointment for a "specialist" that is taking him another week to get into.  Of course I'm freaking out.  There are NO good reasons for a person to turn yellow.  The only not bad reason is if the CT scan missed a blockage that the MRI picked up, and they can do a "minor" surgery.  If its not a blockage, that pretty much leaves liver failure of some form, liver cancer, or pancreatic cancer.  Liver cancer is always secondary...meaning its already moved from some other organ, meaning its stage 4, and pretty much terminal.  I'm not sure I can handle losing 3 people to cancer 3 years in a row.  It also seems like it can only be something major if the doctor is fine with taking nearly 3 weeks to get a diagnosis (assuming the specialist can give him one in a reasonable amount of time)...  I mean, the only reason you let somebody wait that long when they're YELLOW is because you already know there's not much you can do for them, right?

Dad is supposed to see the doc tomorrow, they told him to bring someone that can stay with him for 4-5 hours of tests.  I'm trying to tell him not to stress out about all the doctors bills he'll have...but I suppose its easier to focus on that, then that he might be dying...

So yeah...I still haven't been blogging much, and I'm sorry about that, but I haven't quite felt up to it.  Still no job, not many prospects.  Unemployment running out in a few weeks unless I get an extension, and now this.  It was nice to get some of this out though, and I'll try and post something more positive soon.

Thursday, October 8, 2009


Sorry I've been MIA for a bit, the real world has been conspiring against me getting any writing done.

I got laid off back in  June, and I've been working on finding a job.  We had internet problems here that took me a few days to figure out (and one computer that still decides to have issues now and then).  My allergies have been through the roof, and causing me sinus headaches.  And the only friend I have that lives close by decided he's moving to another state.

So anyway, I'll try and get some more writing in soon, and sorry to those that missed me.


Monday, September 14, 2009

Autumnal Equinox

Here in the northern hemisphere the Autumnal Equinox is soon approaching. This year its September 22nd. For those that don't know, it marks the first day of fall. It also the time when day and night meet in equal length, from here on out the nights will be longer then the days.

Having always been somewhat in tune with nature, there's always an energy in the air during these times. Many people feel it, maybe you always have as well, and just didn't realize what it is. Its the first year that I'm going to try and really celebrate the Earth's change.

The start of fall is a harvest time, and along with many celebrations going on around the world, it is also a deeply personal type of day. We should take a moment to harvest our selves. To take stock in our lives, to give thanks for all that we have in abundance, and to open yourself to the possibilities in the making. Just as crops are harvested, the earth is tilled and prepared for the next year, so to should we be. I know its easy to focus on the bad and what we don't have, so today is not that day. Clear your mind of all that negativity, and think about all you do have, and all that is good in your life. Unlike things like "New Years resolutions" we don't need to make a list, and compare with friends, or even against ourselves. Just celebrate your goodness.

With so many things out of balance in our lives, and the world around us, it is also a perfect day to find our balance. The Earth is in balance, and easily lends its strength to you, to help you balance. One way to find your balance is to start by sitting or standing quietly with your eyes closed. Breathe deeply and pay attention to your body. How does your body feel? Take some time to really feel it, let your thoughts drift to each of your limbs, your torso, your head. If any of it feels out of balance see if you can find way, and make the internal adjustments needed to fix it. Now focus your thoughts further inward on your mind and soul. What do you feel? If you're having trouble finding balance here, try bringing up a little energy from the earth your sitting on, let it flow through you. You don't have to give it any specific directions, just think about finding your balance. It will come. Remember at this time the Earth is in balance, that comes with the autumnal equinox between day and night, light and dark, activity and rest.

There are often other celebrations going on, like Oktoberfest, if you want to look around, but you can also quietly celebrate the changing of the seasons alone, or with a loved one. Going for a walk, and paying special attention to the world around you, the changes going on as fall is here, the Earth prepares for a nice long nap. Decorate your home with the colours of the season, the reds, browns, oranges, candles, leaves, a harvest horn.

Do you have anything special you do at this time? I'd love to hear about it! If you decide to try any of these ideas, I'd like to hear your thoughts and feelings there too. I wish you all balance, abundance, and magic in your lives.

Sunday, September 6, 2009


So it's been almost a week and I decided I better write something again. Have you ever noticed that the longer you go without writing the harder it is to write? When you're in a groove, you just write, it doesn't...seem to matter as much, words just seem to flow. Take a bit of a break though, and all the doubts and fears seem to creep right back in.

Things like, nobody wants to read anything I have to say anyway. What's wrong with you, you don't know anything about writing leaving it to the pros. Shouldn't you be out looking for a job?

Maybe its a form of writers block. Its not that my writing sucks...I just don't have anything creative, I have writers block! It sounds almost cool...cause you have to be a writer to have writer's block, right?

So what do you do when the words don't seem to flow? Is it music, a movie, a walk, a long talk with an old friend? Me...well apparently I just open a window and start writing. :)

Monday, August 31, 2009

Are you alive?

Live like you were dying.

Quite a few people have said those words, and written songs, poems, and musings about it. Even Ghandi said of his dumber things to say if you ask me. I've known a few people who were dying. They lived in pain. Mostly in hospitals. They got to realize they'd never see their kids grow up and get married. They had painful surgeries, and got time to think about all the things they now weren't going to get to do. Not the things lots of have on a go skydiving, or see the pyramids. Things like growing old with their spouse. Getting to spoil their grandkids, or even just getting to see their son take his first steps.

Even if its not a painful death, and doesn't require me to spend time in the hospital in my dying days...lets face it. If I "knew I was dying" I wouldn't go to work. Why bother, I'm going to be dead. I wouldn't bother washing the dishes...I might even skip the shower, I'll be dead, what do I care if I smell. There are so many mundane, day to day things that would cease to get done if you lived like you were dying. Think that garbage man is still going to come by and pick up your trash? Nope, he's dying, he's doing something else today.

I like the sentiment more, live it like you mean it. Or live life to the have only have one life, make the most of it. But lets face it, the day to day stuff still needs to be done by all of us that can't afford to have someone else pick up our socks, and walk the dog, and clean the tub. Isn't there something great to be said for the guy that still went to work everyday to make sure his kids have food, and a roof over their head? Maybe that mom isn't "living life to the fullest", because she's at home, taking care of her loved ones. Isn't that really more important then seeing Rome, or that "big career". Before you get your feathers all ruffled, I'm not bashing moms that have to work. I'm just saying, the ones at home are no less important then the ones in the boardroom.

There's always more we could be doing, and probably even more we should be doing. But I think we should take the time too, and appreciate the things we do. In martial arts, at the end of every session we always stop, and meditate for a moment and "feel good for our efforts today". So today I didn't become the next Chuck Norris or Jet Li, but I still learned something, and got a little better then I was. Wouldn't it be nice if we all took a few minutes at the end of every day to feel good for what we did accomplish? Give ourselves a little pat on the back, instead of thinking of what we didn't get done, or how much there still is to do tomorrow.

And once we learn to cut ourselves some slack, and like ourselves a little more, we can extend that to those around us. Maybe remember to take a moment every day to give a pat on the back to those around us, our spouse, our kids, parents, or even just saying an extra kind thank you to the person that held the door for you on the way into the bank. Wouldn't it be fun to just enthusiastically say something to the checker at the store when you're leaving like, "Thanks so much for your help today, I really appreciate you being here for me.", and then just smile and leave. One person can make a difference in the world, and we don't need to go cure cancer (though that would be nice), or end world hunger, we can change our attitude, and influence and infect those around us with just a few simple words and a smile.

I'd like to challenge everyone to try and take a few minutes every day, and just think about all you DID accomplish. Those little thoughts about, "Yeah, but we didn't do XYZ", kick them to the curb...just focus on the positive. It won't be easy at first, but I think we can do it, I'd love to hear from anyone willing to try, or does try, let me know how it goes.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Share This!

I know not everyone checks out the Blogger Buzz! but they've been doing some neat things lately and one of them is the new Share button on the Blog navbar. If you look up at the very top of the browser window you should see a bar with a B a search box, and then some buttons. There is a new button up there, "Share". If you click that, it makes sharing the entry you're reading. Want to tweet about your friends latest post? Click Share, then twitter, and you're all set!

Check out the article in the Blogger Buzz for some other nifty things you can use the share in your Google Analytics, or watching people share on Twitter...its kind of funny the amount of people using the link to tweet their own posts.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

What's the point?

So I've been putting off writing anything that really related to the reason I started this blog. I have gotten some poetry up, which belongs here, and will have more as I'm inspired to write some. But I've been avoiding the big thing. Mostly I've been afraid of negative responses, and I've been somewhat afraid that as soon I write some deeper more personal things, people I didn't realize were here will suddenly want long conversations involving my soul...and how I'm going to hell...or something. But hey, I have no followers (blog followers people, I'm not starting a religion ;) ), and few people willing to comment (why don't people comment?), so maybe now's the time to start.


There, I said it. It's out there now...assuming I publish this post. The where, what, when and why will have to be many, many follow up posts. I'll share a little bit of where I am now, and the more recent reason why.

A couple years ago I found out one of my best friends was moving to the town we'd moved to. He'd already arranged a house, and they were supposed to be moving down in just a couple of months. We were excited, planning game nights, discussing where he might find work, school for the kids if they stayed that long... but a couple weeks later I got an email, they weren't coming. My friend had gotten cancer. Brain cancer. About six months later I was going to his funeral. He left behind 3 small kids...none of them old enough to ever remember him very well. The world was a darker place without him. Levi was one of those guys that made you want to be a better person, just by being him. He had a way of inspiring and uplifting the people around him, and he was gone, way to soon, barely even 30.

So my "crisis of faith" starts, he wasn't the first person I knew to die, but the first one that really had no reason. My great-grandpa died when he was 98...a full life. Other grandparents were parents are still alive, as are all my siblings. So why him? People around me, and a few at the funeral were heard saying the trite (though I'm sure they think comforting) "The Lord needed him more...", or "God must have plans on the other side he needed him for". To this I say, bullshit. Either God is all powerful, or he isn't. If he is, then he doesn't NEED some person on the other side, he can manage it all himself, and never even break a sweat. What do you mean the Lord needed him more? More than what? More than his wife, his kids, his family? I DON'T THINK SO.

So while I'm dealing with this, we end up moving back to the town where I met him, and I go back to work for another friend. About a year later, his wife ends up in the hospital...and they find out she has lung cancer, and she's gone, 11 days later. Their kids were a little older...but still kids. Again to early...again the lame reasons for why.

I think a lot of people turn to their church at these times...but they were the ones saying the stupid things. Also, you can generally expect clergy type people to act in their own self interest. Their going to give you answers from your scriptures, and things you already know, because they've been teaching them in Sunday School since forever. I don't know a lot about other religions (non christian type ones), and they don't seem to have much representation in town anywhere that's easily findable. So, I do what I used to, search inward for answers...commune with nature. I haven't really found answers for why these things happen, but I have found more peace then I've had in a long time. Things I'd forgotten...

I've always had a kind of kinship with nature. I'm an eagle scout, and used to spend most of my summers hiking and camping as a kid. My mom was never worried when I'd wander off for a couple days, I'd just pack some sandwiches grab a sleeping bag, and walk out the door. I had also been denying my more psychic side. It doesn't fit in well with going to church...and some people will go so far as to tell you its satanic. I'm naturally intuitive, and I've always done things instinctually. Knowing when people are sick...and sometimes being able to help them heal themselves. Just knowing things...that people hadn't told me.

That, combined with nature really fits more into a witchcraft type element. I've always been drawn to that side of things anyway. I've had runes, tarot cards, and similar things. Add to that the Goddess. There is one, though many religions deny it. The why's are many, and they're deep and complex... A lot of them dealing with the more misogynistic side of man, and if you're suppressing women, better make sure to completely deny there's a Goddess. I've never understood was made in God's image. Not just to look like him, meaning God looks relatively human, or man like, but in his nature as well. We're programmed to seek a mate. Few people truly like being alone, and most of us get lonely quickly when left alone for very long. We want to love, and too be loved. This is by divine design. Why would a God who doesn't feel that way, want that for his children? He wouldn't, he wants an "other half" just as much as we do, but somehow people take offense at the mere suggestion. As if having a spouse, or partner makes him less God.

So that's where I'm at now. Who or what do I worship...I don't really know that myself, that's part of the journey, and purpose here. I'm going to wrap this up for now though. Now that I'm "out of the broom closet" so to speak, I'll be adding some links to material of this nature that I like. I'll have it in a separate section of the Amazon area I'll be setting up. If you're not interested, just don't look in there. :) I'll still include more "mainstream" things, like Twilight and what not in there for everyone.

Friday, August 21, 2009

What a movie...

Watched one of my favorite movies again last night; Under a Tuscan Sun. If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it. Its a romantic comedy/drama, that mostly takes place in Italy. The cinematography is beautiful, I've seen the movie a dozen times, and the images still amaze me. I'll not give much away for those that haven't seen it, but it has sadness, happiness, love, romance, a great cast... Yes, yes, it's a chick flick, and yes I'm one of those rare guys that can enjoy those (You did notice I've read Twilight right?).

The movie always gets me thinking about possibilities, decisions, and the steps along the path. At the end of the movie Frances makes a comment about, "Any arbitrary turning along the way, and I would be elsewhere, I would be different." Sometimes we get stuck wondering "what-ifs" because we aren't happy right now with where we are. I think though we often stop and forget that if we had chosen any of those what-ifs, we also wouldn't be WHO we are. Even the sometimes "arbitrary turns" can make huge differences. The time you had to park a block away, and had to walk...never knowing that you didn't get hit by the car that would have come speeding through. The couple that missed their flight, and then weren't on the plane that went down. The time I picked the box of raisin bran...that turned out to be just a box of raisins. The sometimes life altering decisions...the job or promotion...the big get married...all bring us to where we are, and who we are. There are times when I can't stand the town I live in now, but I met one of the best people I've ever known here. How much sadder would my life had been had I never met him?

Possibilities. In a somewhat early part of the movie Frances is feeling pretty down, and one of the people she's met in Italy, Martini, tells her; "Signora, between Austria and Italy, there is a section of the Alps called the Semmering. It is an impossibly steep, very high part of the mountains. They built a train track over these Alps to connect Vienna and Venice. They built these tracks even before there was a train in existence that could make the trip. They built it because they knew some day, the train would come.". I know I often don't do things because of all the negative things that come with the idea of trying to accomplish some things. The how's, where's, why's...with out the positive of the "some day a train will come" type attitude that I might not know the answers now, or even how I'll manage to get the thing done...but that it might be worth doing anyway.

This is one of those movies that always leaves me thinking, "Why aren't there more movies like this?". If you know some other movies of this caliber, I'd love to hear about them.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


They may "do chicken right", but websites...not so much.

The other night my oldest daughter had a friend staying over, and we were trying to decide what to do about dinner. I decided that chicken sounded like a good idea, my wife agreed, and off to the website we went to try and plan the menu.

The website initially looks great, you see the menu items, the first one is chicken. That's great, we want chicken! I click chicken and another page opens telling me all the different kinds of chicken they have....this is good. I click "original recipe", I'm partial to that one. The next screen opens, there's a little blurb about the chicken, a link for nutritional information, and back button. Ok...but I want to know about buckets of many pieces, what are my options, prices, how many sides come with how big of a I click back and attempt to find what I'm looking for. So I search the website up, down, and sideways, no joy. No prices, no real meal layouts, no help. There is a link at the top right that says, "KFC Coupons", well that might be helpful right, I can find a coupon to use that will give a price guide.

So we click over to the coupon link, and they first ask for your birth date. I'm confused...they need to know how old I am before they'll give me a coupon? So I decide to tell them I was born yesterday. Next they want my name and address...I don't want the coupons mailed! They have a link that says "Print Coupons", great. I click that, but it asks for my name again...they really want to know. Ok, whatever, fine. I get the coupon...for 2 pieces of chicken for $24.95. What a deal do these people think I was born yest....oh, right.

In all seriousness though, why do so many of these businesses have websites that just aren't helpful at all? We're an online generation now, and they need to get on board.

Sunday, August 16, 2009


The page is blank
The canvas dry
I sit alone and wonder why, when...

She calls to me in darkness
Her silvery voice alluring
I listen carefully to the tinkling whispers on the wind

Her scent fills my senses
Roses, lilies, earth, rain
I inhale deeply as my head swims with images

Mouth-watering in anticipation
Her nectar is luscious, lingering, savoring
I lick my lips, and take a bite, the fruit is ambrosia on my tongue

Her beauty is alluring
Elegant in her exquisiteness she moves
I am blessed to behold her loveliness, drunk in the vision before me

She brushes up against me
Feathery silky caresses
I reach for her warm embrace, enraptured by her grace

With her presence draped around me
Through me, filling me, sustaining me
I am moved to reach for the stars, move the mountains, and achieve the impossible

The page is full
The canvas drying
I sit full of wonder and awe, at the magic of it all

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Look to the heavens!

Tonight and tomorrow (Aug 12th and 13th) are the best nights for catching this years meteor shower! :)

If the weather is bad, never fear you can see them up until the 22nd. Look to the NE (for many of us), the highest concentration will be around the constellation Perseus.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Health care

I've been thinking about writing something on health care for awhile now, but I've put it off since it doesn't really fall into the nature of this blog. I was just reading over at: Thinking Out Loud and her recent post on the topic made me think I need to put thoughts out there.

I'm tired of all of the insanity surrounding Health Care. Why can't some people get it through their heads how necessary it is, and stop trying to just tear it down? I was taught long ago that if you can't at least bring an idea to the table about how to improve something, then keep your yap shut, because you're just complaining (i.e. whining) and some people have things to get done.

The Republican's favorite spin is "responsibility". The adage, well I have health care (read insurance), so I don't know what your problem is. The implication is always that I'm too lazy to get it, and wasn't bright enough to get a good enough education to afford it. Until the recent layoffs I had a decent job, nice salary, company vehicle, they even paid for all the fuel. However insurance for just my wife and I, cost $250 a month. Tack on nearly another $400 a month if I want to include my kids. If you've got that kind of extra money floating around, good for you. But to top it all off, the corporate offices were in another state. So, that's where the insurance group was acquired and, pretty much, where the only considerations were made. If I wanted to see a doctor covered by my insurance, I had to travel to another state. So I'd better plan at least one day off for anything requiring a trip to the doctor. Not to mention I couldn't afford the out of pocket expenses until I met the deductible.

Or how about all the political bs that insurance companies do, because they are PROFIT run people? They don't exist to help you, they exist to make money. I worked for a hotel a few years back. The place got bought by another company. During the "transition" everyone was dropped from the previous insurance (Naturally!), and the new one wouldn't kick in for 30-90 days depending on your pay grade. There was a nice lady who worked in our restaurant who did have insurance with the previous company and now (like many) no longer did. She had already signed up for the new plan, but during the waiting period her daughter got sick. She couldn't afford a doctors visit, and they figured it was probably just the flu... By the time it was so bad they finally broke down and took her to the ER, it was to late. She died the next day of spinal meningitis. Think any insurance companies lost sleep over that one?

Also, more and more companies don't even offer benefits to their employees. You don't have to give benefits to part time employees, so you hire 2 of those instead of one full time employee.

My next favorite argument has to be the "I don't want to pay for other peoples health care, I'm already paying for my own!". Why can't people see that THEY ALREADY PAY FOR IT!? And they pay far more than is necessary. Sure, your "taxes" aren't paying the $50 doctor visit. Instead they're paying for the $1,000 trip to the ER, the money for tests, for fluids, for more doctors etc. Because when people are finally sick enough to force them into the ER, it's far to late for a simple visit and some antibiotics. Or the ER bill for the parent that brings their child in with an earache. These people STILL don't have the money for the doctor, they just don't pay the bill, because the hospital is required to see the patient. So maybe we should just get the word out "Free health care at ER's", bet that would get some health care reform moving. Think the problem isn't that big? I live in a small town, about 20,000 people. Recently our little small town hospital had to up their budget to help cover uninsured people. They raised it to nearly $16,000,000. That's not a typo, that's $16million, for my tiny little town. Do you think they did that out of the kindness of their hearts? Of course not, some of that they will get back from your TAXES, and the rest they'll get from your INSURANCE when they have to charge you more than they used to. YOU PAY FOR MY LACK OF INSURANCE. So you tell me, your taxes for a doctor visit, OR your taxes for the Emergency Room, hospitalization, and surgeries that would have been unnecessary if I had seen a doctor when I was just "sick".

This is a big part of why the U.S. pays more per capita on health care than any other country...and why we're the only industrialized country in the WORLD without a national health care plan. So how is it we pay more, and cover less? The new census bureau data release in August says we have 47 million people uninsured now. That's 15% of Americans. That's more people than the population of the entire state of California. That's more people then the combined population of 24 states AND the District of Columbia. If you rounded up the entire population of nearly half the states in this country, that would be 1.3 million people SHORT of the total number of uninsured people in this country.

Some people point to Canada to try to say universal health care is bad. Well, lets start with, "This is the US, and if we're lucky we could do better than Canada". But lets also point out that you don't see Canadians in a hurry to try to switch to our form of health care. Let me point out again, we are the ONLY industrialized nation in the WORLD without a nationwide health care plan. Are we dragging our feet because we didn't do it first?

"But we don't want the government running health care!" and "We're not socialists" are kind of the same argument in one. My first response is, aren't your kids in public (government run) schools (and many of them are). Sure the school system isn't perfect either, but we're not trying to wrench that out of the hands of "big brother" because we think a country full of "for profit" schools could do it all better. We think its our RIGHT to an education, and we'd say the same thing about health care if our founding fathers had known to include it in the constitution. You are right about us not being socialists though...we're fascists. The government is mostly run for the benefit of corporations, places that make money and can donate millions to their campaigns, of which insurance companies are one. Aetna made $1.8billion in 2007. Wellpoint $3.3billion, and the list goes on. Whose best interests are being served by NOT having a national health care plan? From 2000 to 2007 Wellcare reported an increase in their bottom line of 1,380.3%. Does it sound like these guys are looking out for you, or for your wallet? Don't you think these companies could provide us with insurance that is if they only made say...$100million a year? If I made that much, I think I'd be fine... These numbers are part of a complete listing as filed with the Securities and Exchange Commission.

And lets not forget that all these politicians that are spouting all this rhetoric have insurance-really good insurance, supplied by the government, ran by the government, and paid for with our tax dollars! The bottom line is health care reform is absolutely necessary. It was necessary when Theodore Roosevelt said so, and its just as true today. Lets look beyond the myths. Lets rise above the selfishness of "my tax dollars", and "my insurance".

Most of this entry has been reposted by me at my hubpages site.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

The Moon

Her silver light cascades down

Surrounding me

Bathing me

Lighting my path

She rises high in the sky

Full in her glory

Gracious in her nature

Her call even moves the oceans

My dance is spontaneous

Filled with her magic

Entranced by her beauty

Quietly her music fills the air

Silently I give thanks for her gifts

Slowly I drift off to sleep

Swadled in the light, the music, the divine

To dream a dream

of Magic

Over there...

On the right I started a little box called "Some things you might like". From time to time I'll add items to it that I think you like. They'll always be things I've read, tried, or used, and when I can, I'll try and review them.

Currently I have up the Twilight saga, and I think that most people are probably pretty familiar with it by now, but I will say I loved the books, and I'm a guy. I do have 4 daughters, so maybe that rubbed off a little bit, but I've always been able to accept a feminine side of nature, and just because I'm masculine doesn't mean I have to run around beating on my chest or blowing things up all the time (now and then is good!).

The other book I have linked is: Book of Shadows: A Modern Woman's Journey into the Wisdom of Witchcraft and the Magic of the Goddess.

his was a really good book. The title sums it up pretty well, but it is based on a true story. The author was an attorney, who for most of the book works for a large record label firm. She got invited one night to attend a gathering of sorts, and though she was nervous she agreed to go with her friend. From there things are interesting, she learns some of the truth behind magic and witchcraft, and women in general. She's unsure about many parts of it, and does a lot of research about lots of the things she learns and experiences. In the end she comes to embrace the divine nature that is inherent in all of us.

Its a great story, and very moving. I kept discussing various parts of the book with my wife, and after a few days she even said, "Since when are you such a women's rights activist?". I had learned a lot about some women's issues I had never considered before, and was disturbed by some of them. I had never been an activist, but I guess I had been more vocal. We had to hash out that comment for awhile, since I've always been in favour of her staying home with the kids, or anything else that she told me she wanted to do.

The book will get you thinking, and I hope you enjoy it as much I did. If you read it, or have read it, I'd love to hear your thoughts on it!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

The Moon

You might say I've always known I was a little different, but you'd be more correct to say the people around me always knew I was a little different.

My grandpa tells me, when I was little (much smaller than I am now) every night I would climb up on lay on the back of the couch and watch the moon through the large living room window. They'd find me sleeping there, and carry me off to bed.

As everyone knows the moon doesn't stick to a strict schedule, and it was one of those times when it was rising a little earlier in the evening, so that before I would fall asleep the moon would pass over the house and I wouldn't be able to see it anymore. When this happened, grandpa says I was quite upset, and crying and it took them awhile to figure out I was crying because I couldn't see the moon anymore. So from then on, every night he'd take a chair out into the backyard for me to sit and watch the moon, and he'd carry me after I'd fallen asleep.

I'm still fascinated by the heavens. I love to star gaze, watch clouds as they drift across the sky, and I love to watch the moonrise. Some believe that the moon represents the Goddess, in three of her aspects. I hadn't really spent much time thinking about that, but perhaps there's more truth than we know, and maybe that's where my love and gift for magic started. I don't know, and for now, the moon's not telling.

Excuse the mess.

Please excuse the mess, I'm remodeling the blog. The posts are still here, so feel free to read on, and really its just cyber dust, so your allergies will be ok. I've found a template that I like, so I'm doing some rearranging, moving the furniture around if you will. Feel free to stay, and kick your feet up, I'll happily work around you.

Friday, July 24, 2009

As the day went by...

You can't tell by looking at it, but I did a lot of work on the blog today! I searched around many gadgets trying to find something useful. I found many things, but none of them quite right. I wanted to put on a little gadget that would tell you your horoscope. I thought I found one, it claimed it could "save" your info, so that when each of you came back, it would show your own horoscope, not mine or someone else's. But alas, it didn't save. Every time I refreshed the page, it was sitting there asking me for my birth date. Then I found a kinda nifty gadget that shows you the moon phase for the current week...but it didn't sit quite right either. So in the end, I left off all the gadgets. I did get the ads tweaked though, so they look more seamless, and less annoying.

Then I started browsing blogs around blogger. I saw many interesting things, and a great many are foreign, and I couldn't understand a word of them, though some had nice pictures and those may have been worth a thousand words but those are the kind of words I can understand! I came across a couple of blogs that showed off I might have to play with some of those in the coming days, and I hope that goes better than my gadget debacle.

On the other side of the day...I've been reading a nifty book. I'll put up a link to it soon, I'm only a little ways in. I'm at a section talking about psychic abilities, and has a test, to find out where your specialties lie. Sure sure, psychics should already know the outcomes right? Well, it doesn't really work that way, and it helps to read, and learn. You can decide to focus more on your strengths, or pursue your weaknesses.

I scored the highest in the areas of Intuition, and Precognition. I've always known I was intuitive, but I didn't realize some of the things that fall into that area. The things I've always done instinctively, or just "known". I never thought about how "knowing" is closely tied to intuition. The precognition thing I never thought much about either. I don't really talk to people much about the many feelings of
Déjà vu I have all the time. Or that feeling you get, when you know what's about to happen. I learned awhile back that people really start to look at you funny when you tell them what they're about to say. I scored almost as high in the clairaudient area, but I always knew I was abnormal there.

If you learn something, then its a good I guess overall it has been a good day, and now I'll bid you a good night.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


The rain falling down...all around

The smell of the moisture intoxicating, mixing, blending

The pine trees near by add to the scent, a clean evergreen

Pitterpat, the rain falls down, all around

Dripping, hitting, rippling, the lake bursts into a thousand tiny puddles.

There, a break, in the clouds...

A stream of light, a rainbow, the rain falls down, all around

Dripping, dropping...the rain its stopping

But it leaves me with its scent, its cleansing, its renewing.

I smile to myself, with the memories...

Of Rain.

The Rainy Soul

What is a "rainy soul"? Does it apply to someone that's depressed, down, or generally blue? Maybe its a person that causes rain. You've probably heard the phrase "He's got an old soul", but have you ever had anyone say, "He's got a rainy soul", and if you did, what would you think they meant?

Personally I love the rain, we never get enough of it here. I think the rain is magical, and cleansing. I love rainstorms, and thunderstorms, and just light sprinkles. And of course, there would be no rainbows without rain (and consequently no leprechauns)! The smell of the rain always makes me smile, its very calming and centering.

So, do I have a rainy soul? I think so. I think its magical (and I believe in magic), at times cleansing, and hopefully sometimes I create rainbows in the lives of those around me. Do you have a rainy soul, or know one?

This space is dedicated to that magical rainy soul. Here will be my ramblings and wanderings on a magical journey of change, beginnings, renewals, and growth. Come take a walk with me, who knows what we'll see. Gods and Goddesses, the Sun, Moon, Stars, perhaps a fairy or two, and maybe even some rain.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

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