Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Where to find the magic?

Is anyone else doing nanowrimo? I'm trying to, but I'm way behind.

So in our last episode "Where does magic exist?" we spent some time defining magic, discussing it some, and deciding that it does in deed exist. So if it does exist, where do we find it?

Well where to find it, to some extent, depends on how you defined it. To me, magic is everywhere. That's why I've put the music on my site, and why I picked those songs. To me, they each contain some type of magic. They make you move, smile, laugh, cry. They make you think, write, and inspire. They may fill you with joy, or sadness. Music can also instantly transport you to specific time and place. You know you each have a song that when it plays you're instantly transported back to that summer day, the prom, your wedding day...or the day you had your heartbroken.

Sunday, October 10, 2010


I close my eyes and picture you

your image haunts my soul

burned into memory as real as flesh

i can almost touch you now

i see you there

i smell your hair

i hear your whispers

in my ear

but when i reach for you

there’s nothing there

mist and vapor

on the wind

I imagine sometimes that when

i feel you so intensely

you’re thinking of me too

am i as real to you

I close my eyes and picture you

your image haunts my soul

Photo by: Neal Fowler

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Where does magic exist?

I was looking through my stats and it turns out a lot of people are wondering if magic exists.  So I thought I'd write a series of articles about magic, what is magic, and finding magic in today's world.

Defining magic isn't a completely easy thing to do.  One definition is: Any art that invokes supernatural powers.  By the above definition if you say a prayer to find a job, or for your child to get over a're doing magic.

Some people really like to use the "k", and say magick.  Well Aleister Crowley says in the broadest sense, is any act designed to cause intentional change.  Well if I punch you in the nose, I'm definitely acting to cause intentional change.  How about if I just hope to pass that math test on Friday?  Does that count?

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Drawing Down the Moon

The leaves crunch softly beneath my feet
The wind gently tussles my hair
the night lit up all around me
As the full moon, and the Goddess smile down

I slip out of my shoes and feel the warmth of the Earth
Its energy fills me
Embraces me
Surrounds me
and grounds me

I raise my arms out, feeling the wind
The air lifts me
Guides me
Accelerates me
and sets my spirit soaring

I look heavenward, the moon fills my vision
Its light bathes me
Holds me
Empowers me
and draws me in

I am at one with my Goddess and the universe
As they are one with me.
We give and take
Share and Keep
Accept and forgive
I am reborn and made whole again in the love and the light of all

I give thanks to the universe
To the Goddess
To my fellow beings
and to the Earth

I return to myself again with
and empowerment

I am Whole
I am Loved
I am Enough

Saturday, July 31, 2010

A Christian Nation?

A bit of a rant today.

Can people stop proclaiming we live in a christian nation already?  Our money does not say, "In Christ we trust".  Many people I know that claim to believe in Christ don't even follow many of his teachings.  Sure many people in this country call themselves "Christians", but at the same time claim that other people saying the same thing aren't.  We aren't a country founded on Christian principles.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Does magic exist?

I recently read an article (can't find it now!) where a lady stated that magic does not exist.  Her basis for this judgement was that if magic does/did exist we'd all have everything we could ever want, and therefore we'd all be happy and there would be world peace.

I really wish I could smack this lady and ask her what she's smoking.  What kind of naivete is this?  We'd all be happy?  Does this woman not realize that even with the best of intentions people can and do have diametrically opposing wants.  One small example, boy wants girl, girl doesn't want boy...boy says, "I wish she'd love me" (simple version of magic, for this argument)...well boy is happy, but its not what girl wants, so is she happy?  You could claim she wouldn't know better, but that's really a stretch.  How about, "I wish for all the money in the world!"?  Well I'm happy, but what about all you poor saps?  Maybe you don't need money, since you can just wish up what you want...but what if you want some of the money?  Taking it to the inevitable end is the, "I want you dead".  Wether its a person, or people.  Hitler, Stalin, or anyone else or any other extremist.  I want that race of people dead.  I want that group of people that don't like me dead.  I want that group of people that don't believe in my God dead.  Well again I'm happy....but what about the happiness of the people I've destroyed?

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Digging in.

I wrote last time about balance, and the need to find it.  Since then I had an epiphany about part of why my balance is off, and while I haven't fully decided what steps to take, just the realizing of it has helped me feel a lot better.

Usually when we feel out of balance, its more then one thing, which makes it so there's no easy "fix-all".  With each step though, we can start to see a little more clearly, and can find things to help with the rest.  Now that's its finally getting warmer, and isn't threatening to rain every day, I can get outside and start working with the earth again.  The earth is well rooted, and huge source of balance for us.  We stand on it after all, and steady ourselves, dance, walk, run, and meander upon it.  Digging into it can be deeply rewarding.

Saturday, May 29, 2010


I apologize for leaving you all hanging, but I've been struggling to find my missing balance in my life, and my world. Balance has always been fairly important to me, and even when things around me are out of whack, I'm usually a calm in the center of it, having my own personal balance and feel for what's going on.  I've come to realize lately that I'm very out of balance in more ways then one. I'm sure nobody is surprised to hear I'm a Libra.

My intuition and impressions in general aren't what they used to be.  I still get feelings from people, and sometimes loud impressions, but not of the same depth, and not as "on demand" as I used to.  My emotions are off, and I seem to feel...just differently.  I've always been able to swing and feel to either extreme, I can cry at movies, and it doesn't phase my "manliness".  And I laugh out lout, and love to laugh.  I love dramas, sitcoms, comedies, tear jerkers.  I'm not sure how to explain how my feelings are off, but they are.  Physically, I'll sometimes lose my balance for no reason at all as well.  Just standing still in the shower, walking down the hall, or sitting on the bed, I'll suddenly start to fall over.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Who would you worship?

What if tomorrow, there was proof there really is more then one God.

What would you do?  Do you have to pick one?  Do you have to worship them all?  What if each one had different worshiping needs or rules?  Much like it is now, I'm sure there would be people everywhere trying to get you to choose their God/Goddess(es).

In the last few days I've been visited by both people from the LDS church, and people from the Jehovah's Witnesses.  Both with very different views of what I should be doing with my beliefs, my worship, and my time.  There are many other groups out there, that all technically worship the same God, the one found in the bible. They all want something a little different though.  Some of them worship on Saturday, some Sunday. The rules they want me to follow are sometimes similar, and sometimes very different. Most of them say if you don't pick theirs then you've picked wrong and you're going to hell, so you'd better pick carefully.

Or how about some aliens land on our planet, and while getting to know them, they show us their own scriptures, and they worship someone completely different.  Their elder's are capable of performing miracles like have been read about from the bible.  Yet they call "God" by some name foreign to us.  Or imagine the uproar if they had the name of some ancient Egyptian, Greek, or Roman god(es).  Would you join them (they did perform miracles), or would you shun them, since they don't follow your god, and all other gods have been deemed "wrong".

I spend a lot of time thinking about this, as I try and find my own path now.  Who do I follow? What do I call him/her/them? How do I worship, if I chose to at all?

As always, you're thoughts, feelings, and comments are welcome and wanted.


Saturday, February 13, 2010

An it harm none...

The Wiccan Rede is a statement that provides the key moral system in Wicca, and other related witchcraft-based faiths. The most common form of the Rede is An it harm none, do what ye will.

But what does this mean exactly?  Is intention enough to qualify, or do results matter?  Like I was talking to my friend the other day, if I wish (i.e. pray, cast a spell, chant, whatever) money.  So...lets say a couple weeks later, I get a nice windfall.  However the windfall was a result of life insurance, my dad died.  So I didn't intend to harm anyone, yet someone was harmed.  Or is it all just a big cosmic coincidence?

So I don't know, what do you guys think?


Tuesday, February 2, 2010

A step forward

My sister knows now.

We were talking the other day, and she was telling me (via chat) about some movie she was buying at Amazon, and I said, you can buy me a book there!  So she asked me what I wanted, and after a few minutes told her the one I'd been waiting to get (Natural Witchery).  She said, "Are you going Wiccan?".  We talked for a few minutes about that I didn't really know where I was going, just in a more magical direction, and sent her to my blog.  So that was pretty positive.  :)

I still don't think my dad could handle it very well, but one thing at a time, right?

Monday, February 1, 2010

The struggle that is life.

Its been hard to write when life mostly just sucks.  Still no luck on the job front.  I did get an extension on my unemployment, which is good.  But its really not that much money, and we're barely getting by.  It has been pretty depressing.  I've always been a fairly upbeat person, and a hopeful optimist while still being a sarcastic cynic.  So dealing with being depressed while also being quite broke is difficult.  Its hard to find energy, or enthusiasm for writing, or even for pursuing magic.

My last friend in my physical location (Wyoming) also recently moved away.  He's really only a few hours away, but without a reliable car, and without the money to travel, we don't see each other.  And even then, its not the same, I can't call anyone now to go see a movie with me, or just grab a cheap hamburger.  So that has added to the depression, and it doesn't seem like anything worth writing about, and doesn't really fit into what my blog is about.  I'm trying to pull myself out of this funk, but it is something that's very hard to do by myself.